平安夜

圣诞前夕，

准备了即将交到别人手里的礼物，

有着因为完成工作的兴奋心情，

到最后却因为争吵而毁了

每一次的大小节日都会因为一些大小事而大吵起来

大事，大吵，小事，也大吵

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在前往他姐家趴地的路上吵了起来，

吵吵，闹闹，忍着想打开车门往下跳的冲动，

静静的听他嚷，第一次放弃了自辩的权利，

只是静静的

他也应该被我的静静的吓着了

他也第一次的，把他那强硬的脾气软化

交往，恋爱，

最大的能力就是能改变一个人向来的脾性吧

第一次亲手布置圣诞树，

把闪亮亮的金星挂在最高处是我的最爱，

喜欢偷偷的向它许愿
没有很丰富的晚餐，但有自备的意大利面和披萨，

没有很熟悉的朋友，但有嘻嘻哈哈孩子们的吵闹声，

没有很懂的游戏，却因为不懂而玩的很起兴，

没有很贵重的礼物，却换得了别人精心挑选的圣诞礼物

平安夜，就是要这样

甜甜的尾声

放假两个月过去了，除了在忙工作好像都别于它的，
其实工作不会很忙，偶尔需要忙个三四天，
过后又能休息五六天，
总和来说休息时间比工作来得还要多
但就是没什么安排

明天就是整个roadshow的最后一天了，
有好多好多的节目在后头，
起码，能为这两个月的假期添加点乐趣了
这也是我向来都爱的先苦后甜吧

平安夜，圣诞节，新年，
整个气氛就……你不开心也不行！
趁未开学好好的过吧！

選擇

我有位朋友，
從高中期就能決定他要走的路，
決定要怎樣實現他夢想
要在何時，跟誰去哪個國家
等等

羨慕

而我
從小都小心翼翼走著不會讓爸媽失望的路
努力的讀書，因為知道爸媽的錢難找
他們都很用心的幫我過濾我身邊的人與事，
甚至是在我生命中出現過的男朋友
他們……很保護我
謝謝

我不愛看星座
射手座往往都被歸納為：
愛自由，不愛被約束，愛往外跑，看世界
我不愛看，因為我並不像他們所說的：愛自由
應該說，我的自由從小就被保護我，愛我的爸媽給剝奪

我要愛他們能接受的他
我要有著傲人的成績
我要呆在最安全的地方

很壓抑，喘不過氣
我很想，要回我的選擇
就算我的選擇會讓我跌得多傷都好
能讓我做回我想做的嗎？

我真的很愛自由
我真的很想看世界

12♥3 我21啦

期待已久的21終於來臨，
就在要把準備已久的裙，髮型，高跟鞋往身上放，
朋友卻臨時放鴿子，被放鴿子的我，還一派輕鬆，
一樣把裙，鞋給穿上，把妝，髮型給弄好，
管他有的沒得，誓死都不要在家度過我那生日前夕

他在我把妝都畫好後的45分鐘才到達，
肚子餓得半命是一回事，其實滿肚子都是怨氣，
帶我到購物廣場，看了不同餐廳的餐牌，
想說就我們倆，隨便吃吧
他卻在我決定前把我給半硬拉的拉回車上，搞哈？

一直在根據他駛去的方向不停猜測，有夠笨
到達了目的地看到了他姐的車，還笨到要命的問
“你要換車啊”，蠢到無可藥救

那晚下著不算太大，卻足以把我頭髮弄垮的雨
頂著包包，踏著高跟鞋，
以超狼狽加一心想尋找他姐影子的心理踏進了那餐廳內
看到的，是我高中的朋友們，他媽媽，他姐，然後……
是那班放鴿子的朋友。
感動


演唱會有壓軸，生日會也不例外，
壓軸登場的竟然是我的家人
才驚覺，連我爸，我媽，我哥也把我給蒙在鼓裡，
我真的有夠蠢！


那晚，是真的感動，開心，震驚得連肚子也都飽了
想說的是
一直以為自己精靈，聰明得很，
什麼驚喜都會被我看穿
這次，卻遇上了比我還要高的山
一直覺得他那麼不在乎的性格很欠扁，
問他有什麼計劃，“你要去哪裡，我就帶你去”
問他有什麼好地方，“不懂哦”
就連資料，選擇都幫他選好，“你拿主意啦，你開心就好”
他的答案，都能很輕鬆又“重視性”的婉拒
一直覺得不被重視，但他卻細心的連我最愛的蛋糕也準備好了

感動

馬克筆敗將

休息了整整一禮拜，重新收拾心情回到工作崗位上
就只得一個字：累
再加上今天那曝曬的天氣，整個人真的快奔潰了
不斷告訴自己，就只需挨多三天，又能再休息了
但，那鼓勵，卻一次又一次的被那該死的天氣打垮!

那天啊，心血來潮做了張所謂的愛心卡，
辛辛苦苦把它搞定，卻在馬克筆那蠢蠢欲動的驅使下,
狠狠地把原本應該一塵不變美美的照片給塗鴉了

毫無後悔之心,還得意洋洋的覺得... ...這樣...好像不錯哦!

Thought

終於去了一趟久違的書展，
整場密密麻麻的華文字，應該有夠他難受了，
苦了他，一直在打哈欠，卻還死口不認悶
謝了，簡單的陪伴，竟讓我有些許的感動

自放假以來，都在忙著掙錢，
找到了一份不錯的工，與不錯的新朋友聊得蠻開的，
就差有幾個撐著自己地位有點高的，一直不斷的為我們施壓
他們的完美主義還真的有夠難滿足
搞得他們一到場監督，我們全都笑不出來了

為了錢，多累多難捱，還是得得撐下去，
不是愛錢，只是要錢，就要自己去拼
就還剩短短的5天，加油啊！

生日就快到了，在短短的兩星期
有種害怕，不知所措，不想過生日的感覺
朋友說，是因為我害怕期待與失望，是嗎？

我常想，
如果我為自己舉辦了生日會，
那會不會是一場只有我自己一人的生日會
根本就沒人稀罕出席我的生日會吧，我猜
也常認為，
自己生日，自己安排去哪，邀誰，
感覺好狼狽，生日怎麼可以那麼狼狽啊?

好煩，生日你可以永遠都不要來嗎？
好煩人的面對

零

今年的四月我選擇了關閉自己的部落格，
一直以為是因為想要用不同的方式去抒發自己的想法與感受，
到了今天的幾小時前，心血來潮開回了這久違的部落格
才意外地發現，我一直都在逃避
逃避這裡的回憶，逃避我想像中的那回憶

幾個月前，發現了，這裡所記錄下的美好回憶，
在現實中並不是那一個樣的，糟透了
就像童話故事被醜化了

難以接受還是得接受，不是嗎
七個月後的今天，我也已經接受了那……醜陋的童話
最好的解決方式不就是面對嗎
把部落格重新啟動只需一個按鈕
在這裡，會繼續記錄我的未知未來，
也同時，會學著面對那過去的童話，不管是，美的，醜的……

來自於他的書

常笑他不會華語，是典型的香蕉人，

但他卻從上海給我帶回來了張小嫻的書

Cameron Nightmare

First trip to Cameron in my life and also the last.

wanna puke every minute in the car.

Gossshhh… the worst Nightmare!

在乎

每次一到23號，都會問他要去哪，要吃什麼慶祝下，

還開始懷疑起是不是我太過一廂情願，他根本都沒說要出……

一直到上星期，各自都在忙final，只顧著死讀，忙到連所謂的“應該慶祝”也忘了，

一向忘東忘西的他，出乎意料的卻在我離開前跟我說25週年快樂

所謂的在乎彼此，其實就那麼簡單吧……=)

Hooray

Been annoyed to look for part time job recently…
CNY is soon gonna come, money is urgently WANTED!
Receive phone call from the agent ask me for training early in the morning..
what a great news!
Luck shouldn’t just stop here, good days ahead!! Aja Aja Fightin!!

Untitled

已經不是第一次吵架了，吵得太多，就只得到一個字：

累

和他吵，根本就沒的吵，輸的一定是我，

他最厲害就是說：不談了，要我冷靜下

連哄都剩回了，你做男朋友的，怎麼那麼容易啊？

每一次，都告訴自己，不能再這樣了，

每一次，說要讓自己想清楚，想想這個他是不是我要的那個他，

但，心還是不能接受分開的那一刻。

說分手容易，難的是過渡期……

失敗

我在想，或許，長大了，出來看社會，就會對愛情有不同想法，

現在最渴望的，竟然是想要快快的看清楚這社會，這世界

疑惑

第一次接過麥克風不是唱歌，而是當emcee，雖然只是短短10分鐘

站在台上的那一刻，已經忘了是因為冷氣還是緊張而無法自拔的在顫抖

在我小學的時候，無論什麼演講，華語，國文，英文，唱歌比賽，

什麼需要上台的班級比賽，全班一定會把手指都指向我，

壓力都歸我，當他們在享受他們的快樂童年，

我卻在默默的背稿，背歌詞

而往往準備得多好都沒用，一上台，往下看到密密麻麻的人頭，

什麼鬼稿啊，詞啊，全都完了，剩下一個空空的腦袋，

所以，站在台上“啊～”了老半天就下台了，也不記得在台上講過什麼

全校的人都已經習慣了，一看到我在台上，就知道“他講不久的啦～”

可悲的童年。

這次當emcee的經驗，也算蠻失敗的吧，

感覺上做了一晚的傻瓜，被人笑的傻瓜，

也或許，是自己心裡在作怪吧……

我……幾時才會成功呢？

Bestest Combination

Strawberry + Honey = Best-est in the world!

Bitch Talk

不常見面，但總知道不遠處有個她再給我心靈上的支持

Family trip to Melacca

It was Mommy’s birthday, brought Mommy and Daddy to Melacca as a reward for them.
Good daughter! XD

Many of them say I look just like my mother.



And my skin tone look exactly like my dad - DARK!!!
How much I wish I can have a fair skin like snow white. =(
Anyway, my dad is super cute wearing my cap. Lolz!!


After been Melacca for so many time,
I’ve finally got the chance to try the long-queue well known chicken rice.
Lovin’ the Chicken rice ball, Slrrrrppppp…

The most unforgettable part throughout the 2D1N trip is,
my dad purposely waited for 6 hours just to bring me to the Nyonya Restaurant that I dying to go.
Seriously touching.
We have hang around in the shopping mall for 6 hours after check out! Imagine that~

Love em’ much!

人心

難以猜測得人心，她

關心你的一切，

但不是關心你過得好不好，

而是關心你過不過得難堪，

表面上做得那麼的大方，心裡卻恨不得想你摔得狠狠的,

這種朋友，比敵友還可怕，防也防不了

Love Hyppo =)

Every time when I saw a guy spending so much of $ just to win a toy for his gf in arcade,
definitely I will think they are stupid.
With the same amount of $, they can probably get more than 1 toy.
Beg everyone think just like me.

However, this dramatic scene had happened in my life,
never expect my bf will be that romantic. Lolz…
The bf insanely in love with a game in arcade,
if U LUCKILY or I should say skillfully insert the round mold into the board stating number of ticket U can win, with only RM1 U can win a maximum of 200 tickets from the machine.
And, I must say that my bf really expert in it.
He won like… … 1.5k tickets, and with the tickets he redeemed me a pink hypo.

So now, Kentucky, another bear the bf gave me last year, has found his accompany, Wendy. =)

Appreciation & Birthday Celebration

Let's see where did I stop... ...

Have our Appreciation dinner with Domino Pizza that night,
Pizza ordered couldn’t fit our tummy as there having too many hungry monsters.
King game and Truth or Dare after few slices of pizza,
finger crossing every time they spin the bottle, and YEAH, I’m always the lucky one. Lolz…

Off to Station 1 to have our second round, Heineken it is.
First time playing “I’ve never… …” with the bunch and the game has successfully making us dizzy.
Having too many bottle of beer make me start to feel disgusting on it.

So, to avoid from having beer again,
we have decided to celebrate Eunice’s and Boey’s Birthday in a very healthy way.
We have our dinner at a Nyonya restaurant, where we have CHINESE TEA that night!
Not forgotten their food potion, it is as small as… NOSE SHIT!
All of us only get to “taste” the food, but not really “eating” it. Swt to the max!
Small yet expensive! Screw U China Cafe!



Happy Birthday Again!! =DDDD

Getaway

Back to hometown during Raya to visit my grandpa,
the bf enjoy himself a lot to be a sakai in the kampung.

He successfully win the heart of my cousie.
“Where is Mou Seng Gor Gor?” asked every time the bf lost from their sight. Lolz




The kids ran round and round to chase BoBo (my dog), the bf and I busy to take care them,
and the adults sat aside to chit chat after not meeting each other for about a year after new year.
Pretty relaxing.
Should have back to hometown more often next time,
rather than just going back once in a year during new year. ♥

Party Rock

New semester has begun, only having 2 classes in a week, dead boring.
Miss the party moment with the brunch, alcohol is always the best damn thing to make us high~

That night was actually a secret party the birthday girl’s bf throw for her,
but in the end she knew everything before we arrive.
Anyway, that night is madness, the bf drank like a mad with the birthday girl’s bf,
and end up the birthday girl’s bf talk a lot of nonsense joke,
and mua beloved bf hug the toilet bowl for one whole night.

Another farewell party for the “Dao Deng”,
again, a terrible ending for the party.
Having too many glasses of Chivas and Cordon Bleu = Puke. LOLZ

Have been knowing each other for about 8 or 9 years?
The most annoying one in the class, and the most disturbing one when making decision to yumcha.
He just sat in front of me in the class,
always the Mr. Annoying to disturb us when we having our SPM revision.
Chemistry class no longer boring because of him, and … …
Too many memory with him, even more than the memory I have we my bf.
Without him in the gang would decrease a lot of joy during our outing, I guess.

All the best in UK, kiddo! =)

Sad to the max

Just came back from my hometown, have a relaxing holiday with my parents and the bf.
Things do not always go smooth like what I expect, THIS IS LIFE!
The bf and I have our happy happy joy joy holiday staying together for 4days,
and once we apart from each other today, we start arguing.

What make me even emo is I've to reject for the Roxy top 20 Finalist
as I’ve promised the bf’s sis to help her in her company’s event. Swt.
and when I’ve finally convinced myself to accept the fact,
the bf’s sis told me that the event has been postponed to other date. fml!
Well, I can only say, it’s faith.

He never understand the reason why am I sad,
always though I’m emotional for no reason. How sad.
No cheering up, Nothing, but keep the sadness back to myself.

Mua Routine

Having sem break make me even further away from my lappie.
Just wanna rot on the bed, or hang out to shop like no body business.
Have been craving for Taizi Tart for weeks, and finally, the Bf bought me a whole box last Sunday.
Ate almost 3/4 of the tarts, banyak effective, sore throat and fever the other morning.
A day later, have video and photo shoot at Sri Petaling,
it’s a very last minute thing for the video shoot.
Script only given on that day it self, imagine its as long as 1 A4 paper,
and I only have around 2 hours to memorize everything. Stress-nya!
But somehow, it have been done, in a very horrible way.
Can’t imagine how the video gonna look like. Adui~~
Make up and hair style done by Aery Jo Academy,
pretty thick make up that only can be completely wiped off after 4 or 5 attempts to remove it.
Freeze for half an hour, and they just get my base done!
If I were given that half an hour, I should have already done all my make up together with my hair do.

Last class of the Sem

That day was my last presentation for Branding,
presenting topic about 1 Malaysia make me wanna sleep all the time!
Look at my eyes, can’t even buka!

Sleepy during discussion,
Sleepy during doing paperwork,
Sleepy during preparing the slides,
Sleepy during waiting for our turn to present,
Sleepy during presentation.

Anything related to 1Malaysia is so hypnotizing! Yawn*

Kindori is Love!

Just another 23rd of the month - July.
That day, we put on our Nike, and be the Nike-couple. ♥

As usual, the bf will bring me out on our monthsary, for movie and also Ice-cream.

What make me so anticipate for the dating is the Kindori macha ice cream!
Like, I only will have it once in a month,
cause we won’t go further than Midvalley for our casual date and,
some more it only available in Sunway.

BUT! Not anymore! Pavilion, Tokyo street has it now! hooray~
Just a cup of macha ice cream enough to make me happy for the entire day.

♥

Photo taken on my bf’s sis wedding. Like finally, I get the photos.

Keep Fightin!

United as 1 event Flash Mob + Food Fair + Stage Play have ended,
2 assignment submitted, 1 presentation conducted,
another 2 hunting me on tomorrow and Friday.
Following by tons of other assignments and quiz.
FML. Like seriously, can someone just “accidentally” poke my head,
let me to have my sweet dream in coma?
I’m dying for a good night sleep… just once!
missing the feeling of Uncle.Sunny kickin my ass at the noon time. Sob.

Squeezing my brain juice, couldn't remember any outing last week. So lifeless!
Other than assignment nightmare, and woke up with shoulder pain almost everyday,
I can't think of any. Finger crossing... ...
There must be a better life after all this hell!
Keep fightin!!

Like a Superwomen

Another hassle week past,WORK-TO-DO list is as long as the traffic in PJ.

Firstly,

Busy with Midterm presentation. Facing problem associate with the fucking group member who always give me plenty of excuses. First, you’re sick. Second, you have relationship problem. Third, you don’t even care to give me a damn excuse. Screw you bitch!

Secondly,

Busy with Internet Technology Midterm. Internet Technology, subject which seems so rare and strange to me. 6 chapter covered, and each chapter having 60 slides! tsk tsk

Lastly,

3 on-going preparation activities for the 1Malaysia event organized by my classmate and I: First, in-charge in shooting close-up number of photos for the 1 Malaysia event. Second, rehearsal for the flash mob publicity, which is going to be very FUN! Last, rehearsal for lighting and audio control for stage play!

Super duper busy yet excito! Can’t wait!

愛錯

歌詞，最好的表達方式；旋律，觸動心裡每一個角落。

要不想，只往前看，真的……沒你所說的那麼容易。

把想法說出來，這並不是和你的相處方式。說了出來，帶來的只有爭吵，

所以……這裡是一個比你好一百倍陪伴的地方

Happy 21st

Happy 21st Monthsary! xoxo

Screw Exam!!

My face expression when having IMC quiz last Wednesday.
Thought quiz should be short, but it contain 100%. FML

Spongebob

Should have Mc.D happy meal to get the Spongebob straw! Damnit!!

Lovely Dovey get Marry!

Dressed up to attend the bf sis’s wedding.

Should post the lovely couple photo, end up I didn't get any nice photo of them,
and I replaced it with the photo of him and I.
As 1 of the ji mui in the early morning, like... ... damn early,
woke up at the time where the clubbers might still shaking their ass in club!
Stay till noon, then have to rush to get my hair-do and make up done,
and last have to reach the restaurant earlier to help on table registration. What-a-day~

Pirates of the LaLabean

Attended Premiere of Pirates of the Lalabean at The Curve.
Still.....Pirates 3 did a better job.

Help the bf’s sister in her company event, as an usherer.
That night was a mess, with myself alone I couldn’t handle the job of 2 or more,
fortunately they assigned another girl for helping me.
Working with him is the toughest part, don’t even know how should I react as it’s still fresh,
should I smile like there’s nothing happen, or what?
well, that night was just busy and chaotic, don’t really have much time to care about it…
Getting myself busier and busier is good, the best way to stop my mind from thinking.
New semester is going to start, he will not be the only men I met, just… … Enjoy! =]

A photo taken that night, with the ambassador of the product - Sharon Tang.
Look fuckin mature with the long dress, hair and everything that is so not me!
FML. Screw the hairstylist! Don't ever touch my hair again!